She is that kind of girl who goes all cheery but is slowly dying inside. She is that kind of girl who gets easily confuse on making her decisions because she is always afraid of the consequences. She is that kind of girl who reads Papertowns over and over again because she wishes she could be as bold and free like Margo Spielgman. She is that kind of girl who has crazy ideas and interests and people often find her different and weird that they often get away from her presence. She is that kind of girl who facades strength and courage as part of her character but honestly, she is the opposite. She is that kind of girl who loves to hang with people who she can talk to without pretenses or prejudice or prejudgement and thus, she dont really have someone to talk to because of her preferences. She is that of girl who almost everyone relies to have solution to their problems but she cannot even win over her depression and anxiety. She is that kind of girl that everbody says is pretty but she cannot see that and everyday her insecurities build up like her wall. She is that kind of girl that feels satisfaction building her wall up and up and up.
But then, as her wall increases, he gets each brick down without her knowing. He, everyday, assures her of her beauty that she cannot see. He gives her food and ice cream so she could forget about her depression and anxiety. He listens to her when no one can even that means he’ll get to sleep late. He become her strength and courage when she was terribly down and when she could not get back up yet, he waits patiently for her.In her weirdness, he support her and encourage her to be as unique as she can be. He never fails to let her feel that she can be whoever she wants and that he is there to catch her whenever her plan fails. He, as always, assures her that she is more than Margo Spielgman and that she is more bold and free if she wishes to be and that she should not be afraid to chase her inner peace because he will be there to wait for her and when she gets tired, carry her and together do the chasing. And, when she is confuse on making decisions, he calms her down and offers logical suggestions in her aide but never tries to decide for her because he respect her that much that he lets her chose what she wants. He is the only one that sees that cheery girl is dying inside and he does everything to revive her and give her his life every single day even it means sacrifice, hardships and cold battles. He fights for her and support her every single fight with herself.
They said that behind every great king is a patient queen but I say, behind the great me is a great and patient man. I may not as easy as I seem to be but every day he never failed to make me feel loved and beyond blessed. He was the miracle that was given to me when all I see is no hope. And, amidst my every struggle and battles in my own universe, I know I have to win life because it is the only little thing that I can do for the man who have given every breath to save my life.
Saranghae, oppa. You know who you are 💕